I've got a hand full of dreams and a heart full of God.

This camp is pretty amazing--who knew workcamp could be enjoyable as a summer staff?! Haha. Like I said before, I'm so grateful for the difference this summer is from two summers ago. Almost everything is perfect.

I say almost because last night I found myself missing Spring Hill. I was sulky, to say the least, especially as I listened to Tiffany talk about all the campers shes met and such. It makes me miss my campers as a counselor last summer. I miss inside jokes and gaining their approval as a counselor. As a red shirt staff, I don't get that same sort of affirmation. I shouldn't need it...but it's a struggle as I wish for it.

I also don't feel challenged spiritually here--but I guess that in itself is the challenge. At Spring Hill, I felt constantly challenged in my spiritual and prayer life because I was so aware of the impact it would have on my girls if I wasn't. Here, I don't feel that need, so in turn, I don't meet the challenge. God is using me in a different way this summer and I'm not sure how to meet it. I forget quiet time and it scares me that I'm not striving for it...

Lately I am constantly searching for my purpose here...I'm just unsure..."

I was sicky on Monday with some sort of tummy aches and I'm still exhausted from it, so I'm sure that has something to do with my contemplative mood recently.

The package I received from home and a note from a friend made me smile today (not that I need reasons to smile!), but thank you!

miss you.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for You

I am so blessed.

Here I am in Estes Park, CO surrounded by some of the greatest people ever. I've had such a great time at training so far. Who knew I'd be back here in this place--physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

I took this yesterday:


Training is tiring but I'm not a freak-o like I was two years ago. I was such a ball of anxiety, but since I've already been through it, I know what to expect. I'm more chill now and I'm praying I stay this way all summer long.

My crew--amazing--three girls who I'm looking forward to getting to know them this summer. I just think we're going to work so well together. Anything is an upgrade from my last experience, but I truly believe I've been blessed with these people this summer.

OH! Here is where I'm going:

Ogden, Utah
Hobbs, New Mexico
Tishomingo, Oklahoma

Sweet huh? Nowhere near home, but then again, why do I need to go home?

call me norman 'cause I'm known to rockwell

I've been obsessed with online journals since I was 13. It's kind of embarrassing, but I love the thought of people reading my thoughts! I think it has to do with my fascination of The Diary of Anne Frank when I was little.

Nonetheless, this summer will be filled with opportunities to share stories and thoughts and probably a million frustrations.

I still can't believe I chose to do Group Workcamp again. I'm thinking positive thoughts though--I'm much more mature and less in need of affirmation as I was two summers ago.

23 days until I'm in the Rockiessss!