1 John 3:18

"Dear children, we must not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions."


This is why we have to choose to always love each other.

But where is the line between caring for our own wellbeing and putting others before ourselves? If we don't care for ourselves, then eventually we will no long be able to help those around us.

I care a hell of a lot for my friends and I try so hard to show it. Since I do my best, I expect those that love me to do their best too and when I feel unloved or let down, I become bitter and I stop doing those things. It's made me become unthoughtful and selfish.

I need to choose to start loving again. Without expectations. Bitterness helps no one.

Sometimes I can't help but to allow my faith to be shaken.

I guess thats what makes me human.

take your hesitance and your self defense,
leave them behind,
it's only life,
don't be so afraid of facing every day,
just take your time,
it's only life,
i'll be your stepping stone,
don't be so alone,
just hold on tight,
it's only life,
oh...don't look away, don't run away,
baby it's only life,

don't lose your faith,
don't run away, baby,
it's only life

Let the bass from the speakers run through ya sneakers

While I run, I listen to my ipod and lately I've been playing my "Love Out Loud" playlist--all the songs from the Workcamp program this summer.

Take it All by Hillsongs United is at the exact same beat as my pace when I run.

This is corny but today I was thinking about how anxious I am to start school because once senior year begins, it's going to be gone and then I'm going to have to make some extreme real life choices. If I let myself think about it too long, my heartbeat seriously rises because I get so worked up. Maybe I should use the song in my everyday life, rather than just when I run.

You sent your Son,
From heaven to earth.
Delivered us all,
It's eternally heard.
I searched for truth,
And all I found was You.
My God,
I'll only ever give my all.

Fear?

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson

Morning

From now on I'm gonna start holding my breath
when you come around and you flex that fake grin,
cause something inside me has said more than twice
that breathing less air beats breathing you in.

Prayin for Daylight

"You know what? I am actually not that much into voting. I think it's kinda crazy that a woman is running, because I think that women deal with a lot of emotions and menopause and PMS and stuff. Like, I'm so moody all the time, I know I couldn't be able to run a country, 'cause I'd be crying one day and yelling at people the next day, ya know?"

- Brooke Hogan

Not that I ever though Brooke Hogan had some sort of massive intelligence behind her appearance in the media, but I always give the benefit of the doubt. A friend sent me this quote a few weeks ago and I'm just now dwelling on it. Brooke Hogan is becoming a media role model for young girls, whether she likes it or not, because she was a judge on America's Prom Queen and she has her own television show--both of which are watched by young teenage girls who are largely influenced by the media. Uggggggh! She wasted her breath after she was asked who she was voting for in the election, because this comment has done no one any good. Thank God for Rock the Vote and Declare Yourself, organizations who work hard to get young people at the polls, because as much as I hate to admit it, so much of America is influenced by the shiny people we see on tv.